oh the days....

jillieface @ 2008-04-14T18:24:00

2008-04-15T01:25:48Z

it has been one year since his momma past.
poor baby,

=[

Dreams?

2008-02-24T21:18:49Z

I have been having a lot of dreams lately. Which is really weird because I never have dreams usually. I have had like three that I can remember in the past two weeks. One of them I got into a fight with a stupid bitch and fucked her up. I woke up and my heart was racing soooo fast it hurt. Another one I was at a funeral for my friends Grandpa. It was where the strawberry fields are on McHenry on your way to Modesto on the left right before Al's Furniture. and there were a bunch of fold-up chairs alllll on the field, like hundreds and thousands of them, and every single chair was filled so Cory and I had to stand. Neither of us felt comfortable there so we decided to leave. we walked up the road where Al's furniture is except on the right side of the road was the river piece on the other side of the bridge as if that was river road right there. We started to walk into a big crazy forest to walk down to the river...and then I woke up. The last dream I had kinda made me happy in a way. There was some kind of family party going on and Cory and his Mom asked me to watch Cory's little brother while they went to the store. But She like couldn't talk for some reason so everytime she wanted to say something she would whisper in his ear and he would say what she wanted. Cory said it was like that because I don't remember her voice, I think it's like that because everything she wants to say to people now comes out through him. It made me happy that I dreamt about her. Considering I only met her a few times before she died....

Anyways, it's a rare occasion of me to remember my dreams. And I remembered three of them. It's pretty cool.

jillieface @ 2007-08-07T08:37:00

2007-08-07T15:43:18Z

I'm SO Incredibly scared right now.
I can't believe this is happening.
Someone just make it all stop.
Go back to yesterday.
Eddie will be fine if we just go back to yesterday.
Donnie won't be going away.
please please go back to yesterday.

jillieface @ 2007-03-16T22:30:00

2007-03-18T06:33:01Z

It lies in the heart, the mind reassures itself through thoughts and processing. these will endure a temptation fueled by the heart and if you can master the point all together, then you will find the peace in your soul.

Chiiico

2007-02-24T19:43:18Z

Some are "crafty" and some are just pictures.
maybe, tell me what you think?
although I'm pretty sure Jane is theonly person whoever even gets on this thing anymore

anyways. Enjoy:

END.
=]

Adventure

2007-02-22T05:59:46Z

so yesterday i went to Chico with Sierra and her mom.

it was really cool.

we went into a whole bunch of different art galleries. and a couple thrift stores.
i only got a really cute ring with starts and moon crescents on it. but still.

it was a lot of fun.

OH! and i discovered the COOOOOLEST clothing store!
called LuLu's.

I decided that when I get a job and Jane gets her liscence JAne and I will go to Chico and shop at LuLu's because Jane would hecka like that store.
they have the cutest clothes.

jillieface @ 2007-02-13T10:34:00

2007-02-13T18:35:20Z

doll la la la la lots of paper.

!%@#!$

woop

lovetap!

2006-12-12T02:59:04Z

today my friend Alex "accidentally" elbowed me in the face. it was funny. really.
&& it hurt!
and he said it was a lovetap.
which reminds me of my sister. yup.
Jane. she would hit me and say ... it was a lovetap.
i guess i love you too jane. buti really wish there was a different way of showing it from you.
i also heard the word Gaylord today... haha.
ohhh boy.

failed my drug test.

2006-11-29T04:29:19Z

basically for the most part.

FUCK drug classes.
FUCK drug tests.
FUCK failing.
&&
damnit im so FUCKED.

jillieface @ 2006-11-05T12:32:00

2006-11-05T20:32:17Z

i have to be honest.

it isn't too bad for a cell phone.

&& my camera is broken. =[

ugh.

jillieface @ 2006-10-29T09:43:00

2006-10-29T17:50:32Z

hahaha.
okay bye.

we are just weird. honestly.

ily

jillieface @ 2006-09-25T07:16:00

2006-09-25T14:18:32Z

im in real need for a damn adventure. pronto.

&& i have never been to santa cruuuuz.

yep.

nuff said =]
i'll give you a cookie....

<3

jillieface @ 2006-09-24T02:43:00

2006-09-24T09:50:50Z

i am having a whole bunch of thoughts racing through my head right now.
so lemme just get 'em ouuuut.

i need to go to sleep
maybe i shouldn't have taken that nap today
wow. i have lots of homework
what movie should i see tomorrow?
-Gridiron gang
-hollywoodland
or
-the covenent?
knock me out?
oh geeze.
yay! dad just told me to go to bed.
now i have a reason too.
because i wasn't in the mood for it eventhough i needed it and now i have too. =]
thankyoulord. <3

jillieface @ 2006-09-21T21:32:00

2006-09-22T04:33:36Z

As I was watching The Davinci Code. [an amazing movie by the way]

I simply said, "I wish my life could be an adventure like that."

and my Dad replied, "It is, I'm just waiting for the appointed time to tell you."

gah! i love him.

jillieface @ 2006-09-21T16:14:00

2006-09-21T23:35:43Z

Prologue

1.Where did you take your default pic
in my bathroom. =]

2.What exactly are you wearing right now?
ha. wow actually a grey t-shirt with a pocket on the chest and some sweats. =]

3.What is your current problem?
the essay that i still have to write.

4.What makes you most happy?
being able to see my real friends.

5.What's the name of the song that you're listening to?
Say Yes - Elliot Smith

6.Has anyone you've been really close with passed away?
....kinda... we coud have been closer.

7.Do you ever watch MTV?
my TV doesnt have MTV... but it has BET and i watch that lots when i actually DO watch tv.

8.What's something that really annoys you?
when money isnt in order like.. the faces all the same way and the numbers not in order... like 1's then 5's then 10's ... yeah im weird... OH and pencils. ONLY Dixon Ticonderoga's and ONLY sharp. ick. its so gross to write with anything else.
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Chapter 1:

1. Middle name
Elaine.

2.Nickname(s):
hhaha. like a bajillion.
Jillard
Jill Pickle
Boot-eh
Willard
haley calls me J.Lo.
sooo many more.

3.Current location:
Grass Valley

4. Eye color:
GREEN and brown and yellow and red. =]

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Chapter 2:

1.Do you live with your parents?
my daddy <3

2.Do you get along with your parent(s):
hahaha . sometimes.

3.Are your parents married/separated/divorced?
divorced

4.Do you have any Siblings?:
JANE ELIZABETH!
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Chapter 3: Favorite...

1. Ice Cream:
vanilla bean =] [granny tunred me onto it.]

2. Season:
autumn.
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Chapter 4: Do You..

1. Write on your hand?
ohhh yeah like ALL the time. hearts and starts and stuff.. and my homework

2. Call people back:
... no. wooops. =/

3. Believe in love:
i have my days.

4. Sleep on a certain side of the bed?
yeah. right by the wall. with the pillow on the wall though.

5. Have any bad habits?
tons. i bite my nails thats the main one.

6. Any mental health issues?
haha i think i have ADD. and OCD. and tons others. Im a Hyprochondriac. =] mmhm yes i am.
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Chapter 5: Have You...

1.Broken a bone: nope not yet. =]

2.Sprained anything?
nope.

3. Had physical therapy?
not physical...

4.Gotten stitches:
yeah when i was like 0 i got like 3 stitches because i cracked open my chin. hehe

5.Taken painkillers?
holyshitballs yeah.

6.Gone SCUBA diving or snorkeling?
No. but i should.

8.Thrown up at the dentist
no.?

9.Sworn in front of your parents:
=/ yeahhhh.

10. Had detention:
sure lots of times.

11. Been sent to the principal's office:
ohhh yeah.
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Chapter 6: Who/What was the last

1.Movie(s):
?? i dont know? crazyyyy

2.Person to text you?
Lacey i think.

3.Person you called?
probably my dad.

4.Person you hugged?:
??? dont know. my mom maybe?

5.Person you tackled?:
uhhhh? i haven't tackled someone in a really long time. i bet it was jacob though....

6.Thing you touched?
this keyboard that i am typing on....?

7.Thing you ate?: ahm & cheeese omelet. it wasn't a very good one. my daddy usuallly makes them BOMB... but the ham was weird.?

8.Thing you drank?:
Diet Mountain Dewwwww. =]
i need to stop drinking soda....

9.Thing you said?
i was on the phone with jane and i think i said. K bye.

fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck

2006-09-20T19:55:10Z

ugh. i have court tonight.

and im sick.

fan[fucking]tastic.

shoot me?

okay.

im bored.

gahhhhh!!

2006-08-15T07:02:51Z

I got my monroe pierced!!!

right after it got pierced...

&&& later on that day....

yes! i love it!

yes yes yes!

2006-08-13T19:48:48Z

i am soon going to have this:

im sooo excited!

probably tomorrow...
i will get a picture of mine.

:(

2006-08-10T16:52:25Z

ugh.... no more boyfriend. just when i thought things were going good too.

jane hurry up and be up here already!

I wanna play at the fair and stuff!!!!!

she was adorable!

2006-08-06T03:24:01Z

so basically i jsut saw the cutest little old lady.

i always see her walking up and down our big huge hill and she makes me heckof sad. because she walks on a crutch. just one. and she always makes me sad.

but tonight me and dad drove by this bar and we see her out on the street HECK OF DANCING having the time of her life!! and i think wow she isn't sad at all she is just worn out from dancing all the time.

and so i cried.

yay!

2006-08-04T06:24:21Z

OH EM GEE.

i just had thee cheeziest time with that on cute boy, and i loved it.

haha. im such a sucker for the cheesey stuff. no joke. liiiike... stars and night time cloud watching. and just plain taking.i don't know, maybe im suuuper lame. but it was like fantastic. haha.
<333 jilliewillie

jillieface @ 2006-07-22T11:13:00

2006-07-22T18:16:45Z

im in a really weird mood lately.... like i just want to sleeeep. but not actually sleep. just lay there.

ummmm. so its really hott. and there is NO AC. and i might get grouchy real quick here.

and i have to goto a B-Day party for my cousin Quinn today and i am just NOT in the mood to talk to the famiy and stuff because they are going to say something Hella stupid i just know it. and i will get pissed off and i know that like the second i walk in the door. im going to feel lots of tension between us and its dumb. but oh well. they can talk all the shit they want.

jillieface @ 2006-06-29T13:50:00

2006-06-29T20:47:12Z

so there is this cute boy...

:D

i really want to watch some strongbad

2006-06-16T14:06:55Z

soooo.

I moved into an apartment !
YES!

annnnnd we are in the process of moving in and we are bringing over the computers today and we will not have internet fooor awhile. i don't know how long but yeah, as long as i am out of those houses and stuff then i am fine. i don't have to deal with satan and her twin sister anymore for a long time so therefore i am good.

uhhh.

i just had like 10 nilla wafers.

<333

jillieface @ 2006-06-14T21:33:00

2006-06-15T04:33:23Z

shy
the heat is so great
it plays tricks with the eye
it turns the road to water
and then from water to sky
and there's a crack in the concrete floor
and it starts at the sink
there's a bathroom in a gas station
and i've locked myself in it to think

and back in the city
the sun bakes the trash on the curb
the men are pissing in doorways
and the rats are running in herds
i've got a dream with your face in it
that scares me awake
i put too much on my table
and now i got too much at stake

and i might let you off easy
yeah i might lead you on
i might wait for you to look for me
and then i might be gone
where i come from and where i'm going
and i'm lost in between
i might go up to that phone booth
and leave a veiled invitation on you machine

and you'll stop me, won't you
if you've heard this one before
the one where i surprise you
by showing up at your front door
saying 'let's not ask what's next,
or how, or why'
i am leaving in the morning
so let's not be shy

the door opens, the room winces
the housekeeper comes in without a warning
i squint at the muscular motel light
and say, hey good morning
as she jumps, her keys jingle
and she leaves as quickly as she came in
i roll over and taste the pillow with my grin
the sheets are twisted and damp
and the heat is so great
and i swear i can feel the mattress
sinking underneath your weight
oh sleep is like a fever
and i'm glad when it ends
and the road flows like a river
and pulls me around every bend

and you'll stop me, won't you...

the heat is so great
it plays tricks with the eye
it turns road to water
and water to sky
and there's a crack in the concrete floor
and it starts at the sink
there's a bathroom in a gas station
and i've locked myself
in it to think

and you'll stop me, won't you...

-Ani DiFranco

you should bump it someday